I was thinking latly... ive read some people's journals and talked to some people and thought about myself. and i came to the conclusion.. what if we wernt ment to be... what if i was not ment to be a computer game designer... what if one of my friends is not ment to be a manga writer.. what if we honestly wernt ment to do the things we say were going to do...

i ask this because i sit here at my computer thinking back over the four years of my life and realize i cant do anything more with my computer then i could 4 years ago. i hear some other people talk about life not going the way they want. things are getting to hard, i have drawing block, i have writers block, ive been procrastinating, i dont know what i want to do. ive heard alot of things and i wanted to put this question out there.

what if were some of those people who feel invincible. I WILL DO THIS. but in reality we are just one of the millions of people who havnt dedicated enough of their life to their passion. i speak twords me and 2 of my friends with this post. they know who they are. if we arnt progressing and are not having any fun doing what we say were going to do... is it wise to not have a back up plan.... im starting to form my own as we speak... so i dont know.. you may think what you want... but let me lower mortality on our heads... most of us our seniors... how much have we improved in what we wanted to do since freshman year...... how much time do we have left to make up the loss ground...